Lately work has just been stressing me out.

Especially at my retail job.

My manager is really pissing me off.

The other day I looked at the schedule book and realized I got scheduled for next week. EVEN THOUGH I asked for it off because I had to study for my math test on Friday.

So I tried to talk to my manager and she brushed me off and said she'd come back to talk to me later. Ten minutes later I find her in her office talking and laughing with another coworker.

Fine. You're "busy" all the time. I forgive you for forgetting about me and making me wait for you even though I was off work by then and should've gone HOME. I don't care.

Then I asked her to change the schedule, explaining that I really had to study. And she seemed really annoyed.

So she looked a the schedule for like a minute, wrote down all of four letters and then tried to make it seem like I owed her SO MUCH.

She turned to me and said "well now that I did this for you you're now going to be available for the 30th, 31st, and New Years. And also I need someone to work the 24th and the 26th."

I almost quit on the spot. Sesame was surprised that I didn't when I told her about it.

What a b*tch!

If she had asked and said that she needed people, maybe I probably would have said yes. But to make it seem like I owe you because I'm taking all of two days off to STUDY? And then in my face just DECIDING that I'd be available?

No.

Go. To. Hell.

I bit my tongue and instead calmly compromised and said I'd work the 24th, but NOT the 26th.

Screw her.

Like SHE'S working those days.

NOT.

I hope she burns. No one even really likes her. She starting to piss EVERYONE off in our department off now.

I really want to quit now, but like I said I'd feel really bad about ditching right before Christmas.

Coffee said that I should stay, work the holidays, get my time and a half and then leave...

So I've decided to type up a letter or resignation and give notice. I'm going to be gone by New Years.

She's a horrible manager.

What kind of manager pisses off ALL their workers? Everyone's looking to quit now.

GJ.

Who're you gonna manage when everyone QUITS?

Does she even know how bad everyone cracks up when someone comes up to us and asks where they go to apply for a job?

Even the newbies think she's fake already.

Nobody knows where she IS half the time.

She favors to the point that it's ridiculous.

She's kept people from jobs who REALLY deserve it and she gives them to people she likes.

Sometimes she goes on these... what does she call them? Like "marketing research" trips? She took one of the girls she likes from the department with her. They were gone for hours. I was told that they "went downtown to walk around the high end shops and see how the associates work and interact with their customers." If you're a manager and YOU don't know how to do that stuff already... that's pathetic. But fine... whatever. Great. The trip sounds like an awesome idea.

Can you do it on a day that we're NOT short staffed like crazy? And maybe you can let us know you're gone next time?

I hate this place.

Gosh I'm so tired! I just finished off a test.

MATH test again. =[

I studied really really hard. I wish I really studied one of my quizzes more though because I skipped two questions that were almost directly from one of them. *cry cry*

I've resigned myself a long time ago that math and I just don't mix. No matter HOW hard I try.

I went to study with Coffee the other day and I ended up asking her the dumbest questions. They were questions about things I should've learned YEARS before. I felt so stupid.... -_-;; But then again I never knew how I passed math back then. It was always a mystery to me. I failed almost every single test I ever had.

My eyes have gone weird for the time being from staring at my textbook for almost 4 straight days. I am, for the time being, very much near sighted.

Well it's over and done with for now! I don't have to worry for like another month!

I've been wanting to hang out and go do things with people but... either no one wants to do go, or they're too flipping broke.

Still... I'm managing to keep myself pretty busy. Between martial arts lessons, dance classes, dance practices, school, and work, I'm pretty much busy 24/7. With Christmas coming up, I'm not sure I'll be able to manage everything. Work will be demanding more hours. Right now I'm really thinking of quitting, but I think I'd feel really bad... and they'd probably really hate me for ditching them right before the holidays when they need people the most.

Guess I'll have to hang in there for a little bit.

but all I really want is just a little time off to chill and sleep maybe. I just want to laze around the house for a little while... but I can't. I'm always running around. If I'm not at work I'm doing something else. There's always SOMETHING I have to be rushing off to do. There's always SOMEONE who needs something from me or needs me to do something for them. And I swear I lose weight because I'm always running after the bus or sprinting off to catch that one train at 5:06pm almost everyday.

I know that *bleep* (identity protected) is probably going "wtf vivi, I told you to take it easy! If you get yourself hospitalized I'm gonna point and laugh and say: HA! I told you to go see a fricking doctor!"

Well I say: BRING IT ON, YOU! I'm not scared of your pointy finger and your "I told you so!" MOOOOOO!

This week I'll be even busier since a friend who recently moved back to Taiwan is back for a week long visit. I'll be trying to do stuff with him when everyone else is busy... which most of them are. He picked a bad week to come. Everyone's got projects, exams, and presentations due.

BUT...

He brought me my mascara~ <3



Majolica Majorca! Lash Expander Frame PLUS!

Okay... well it's not really MY mascara since I've never used it before. I just really wanted it because everyone keeps raving about it. I had him bring it over for me because you can't really find it here, and if you do you won't be forking over any less than $25. He on the other hand walked barely 100 feet and paid about $10 for it.

At first when I opened it I freaked. I saw what looked like little hairs all over it... then I realized that that's just the fibers that everyone's been talking about... -_-;;

To be honest it's not that great. Maybe I'm just not used to it yet? I don't wear make up that often if really at all.. but I'm kind of liking the one coat Great Lash, one coat Estee Lauder combo I use when I DO want to make myself look decent. With this lash expander I find that I can't really go past the first coat. Maybe it's just me.

I semi got off my lazy butt and took pictures of my two new pairs of boots.

These were $70. Bad lighting sorry...:


And these were insanely expensive ($200), but I love them to death and they are very, very comfortable for a pair 4 inch stiletto boots:


It looks like there's a weird bump on the back but that's actually just the back of the other shoe sticking out from behind.

One of my coworkers' birthday last week. I ran out on my break and bought her a cake (black forest). The cake was friggin adorable... but the guy who wrote the message really needs practice. It looks terrible...


I'm going to finish off this post with a funny story that's going raise some eyebrows.

People who know me will be like... "sigh... vivi..." *insert head shake*

People who don't know me will probably never read my xanga ever again... but that's OKAY!

So like I said I'd been studying for 4 days. At about day two or three (can't quite remember which... probably day three when I started to get a little loopy from staring at math problems for so long...) I decided to study outside in the dining room.

You know. For a change.

So I went and I tried to drag the computer chair over to the dining table. Don't ask why I didn't feel like sitting on the dining room chairs for some reason.

But like I said: I TRIED to drag the computer chair over... but it wouldn't go without a fight. Halfway over to the dining room table it decided it didn't want to go any farther and when I gave it a tug it rammed right into my ankle. It hurt and I later found out it actually broke skin... but that's not the point...

After it ran into my leg I paused there for a few seconds in shock.

Then I glared at it.

Then I freaked out, had a mini meltdown, and stood there just bitching at it for god knows how long.

I was all like: "You stupid f*cking useless piece of junk! You're a rolling chair! Roll for f*ck's sake! What the hell is wrong with you?!" etc etc etc. I don't even really remember what I yelled at it and I doubt half of it really even made sense... but I yelled at it.

I just went totally ape sh*t on it... then I felt bad for it... then I finally just gave up, lifted it off the ground and carried it instead.

No one else was home though. Thank god. No witnesses to my break down. My family ALREADY thinks I'm completely bloody insane.

That's my story. I don't know if you found it funny. I think it's hilarious...

If you think I'm being unusually weird today... I blame it on the math...

Hey everyone!

It's Halloween! Haven't got anything planned for today but I'm happy I got the day off!

Hopefully someone's going to give me a call and tell me to do something with them.

I'm not too sure I should go ahead with my original costume idea just because I hurt myself and my costume will sort of show it off. =/ If I wear my costume I'll post a pic later. The day hasn't "officially" started yet.

It's been raining like everyday for the past little while and the other day I stupidly temporarily gimped myself during lessons... sigh... A walk to the bus home that takes about 15 minutes usually ended up taking half an hour. AND I got soaked through. I didn't bring an umbrella with me that day and my hair was actually dripping by the time I got on the bus. People were looking at me like I was a freak. I don't blame them. I would have too. I looked like a homeless youth and I walked like I had a busted leg from getting beat up or something. (-_-;;;)

Anyway. Short post. I'll leave you with a couple of my favorite songs. I've been listening to them over and over lately.

The first one I fall in love with again every single time I listen to it. It's kind of cool because I get a different feeling from it depending on what's going on in life at the moment.

The second song someone sent to me post break up a couple of years ago. This song and the person who sent it to me made me realize the importance of the lyrics of a song. Now I listen to the lyrics of every song and I can love a song even if it doesn't sound that great just because I love what it's meaning is.